Thursday, June 10, 2010

I'm being lame at the moment

This is not really an update on Mexico so much as a way for me to feel better, so if you aren't interested in the technical details of my sin/frustration with life/whining then you may not want to read this. That is A-OK.
I don't really know what happened. I try really hard to not think of my time as "my" time. Mejor en español, no?
Mi tiempo no es mío es de Dios
No sé por qué lo quiero como mío, porque no lo uso bien.
No me puedo controlar a veces. Me pongo celosísima con algunas cosas y de repente me siento muy humillada, avergonzada, por haber sido tan egoísta y tonta. Me quejé demasiado en frente de la banda, y no habría hecho eso. tampoco habría querido toda la atención. Es un equipo, una banda, no puedo cambiarlo en una cosa de mí mí mí...

Quizás es porque quiero más tiempo con Keila, quiero ser su amiga, quiero cantar con ella quiero compartir música con ella, todo eso, y cuando ella misma reconoce que soy pésima me desespero, porque si ella no cree en mi talento, me siento tomada por vencida. Pero no es así - Dios sí cree en mi talento, él me lo dio.

Tengo una conección con ella muy fuerte y profunda y cuando me siento que ella me falla, me pongo como deprimidísima...qué onda con eso? Me choca mucho esta actitud que tengo pero a la vez no quiero dormirme sin reparar las cosas entre nosotras.

Por favor, Dios, ayúdame en estas situaciones que me desesperan. Me choca esta actitud y depresión que tengo y no quiero ser así. La música me toca muy fuertemente y no quiero ser así. Jesús, por favor, ayúdame, yo creo que canté hoy mejor que nunca. Por favor Jesucristo que mañana cante mejor que hoy.

Dios, bendícelos a todos de la banda. Ayúdanos ensayar bien, y aprender uno del otro. Te adoro Dios mío, y te quiero seguir en todo. Amén.


Hola MaryBeth - te quiero :)

Pues, ya, me cansé de hablarme a mí y Dios me oye dondequiera que vaya, entonces voy a hablar con mi amigo y luego llamarle a Keila, para pedirle perdón por mis acciones tontas y que ella todavía siga mi amiguita.

Dios te amaré y te seguiré para siempre!

Monday, June 7, 2010

 


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Thursday, June 3, 2010

June? Already? Wow!

Hey lovelies :)
Pat and I are doing well. We are in México still, hanging out mostly. Pat has gotten the hang of the bus system all by himself, which is a great thing! He comes over to the house where I live every day at around 10ish, and we hang out all day. He's getting better at Spanish. The other day (Monday) he spent all day making lists of verbs and stuff, and I think he really enjoyed it actually, haha. He's been working on math as well, which as fascinating as it seems, is really boring in my opinion, so I've been doing other things when he does that (like play facebook games or read).
I have looked into some of the Grad School programs that I wanted to check out (they're in my spreadsheet) and so I have narrowed down some options. I need to e-mail some of the professors I have at Eastern to ask them what programs I should look into, because they would actually know who the good people are. I want to study immigration/migration Sociology and though the best place ever would be Princeton (yay Doug Massey!!) I might be well off at UC Berkley or at University of Chicago, or something like that as well, I just need to make sure I find out from the right people. Pat and I need to take the GREs when we get back, and I already told my friend Sara that we could study for them together once we're back home. I am a little nervous about them, but at the same time, I know that God is going to work with what we've got and Pat and I are really putting our best into our academics so that we can get into the schools we want. I'm sure that we will get in somewhere, you know?
For anyone wondering, the plan is to get into the same grad school, or grad schools very close to each other, but if only Pat gets into the great school, then we'll go wherever that is. We still haven't figured out what might happen if the opposite is true, but we're discussing it. My education is subordinate to his, because I can be happy doing ministry (which doesn't require a Ph.D) and then once he's got his Professorship going then I can try and go back to school, even if just for a master's degree. This is all the back-up plan, though.
In other news, I started a small group for musicians where we're going to talk about Christian music and why Christians should be musicians and what the Bible says about music, and the history of Christian music, and stuff like that. I'm pretty excited about it, we're going to meet tomorrow evening and then have 2 more meetings talking about the contemporary Christian music and then the future of Christian music. I'm psyched to get to hear the opinions of some of the college students down here as far as music is concerned. There are some really amazing musicians here :)
Also, Pat and I are going to go to a worship night tonight led by some college kids that we know, and we're pretty pumped about that too. I'm seeing the network of ministries and how they sort of flow into each other, and that's how it's supposed to be, right? I think it's pretty cool.
Pat and I cooked all day on Tuesday for the youth group/college group (the ministry that I am an intern for) because we give free dinner for the meetings. We made sincronizadas (sync-cron-ee-SAH-dahs)which are two tortillas with mozzarella cheese and ham inside that you cook in a frying pan with butter. Served with them were pico de gallo (what we think of as salsa) and sour cream, it was really good. We also baked 60+ soft pretzels with cinnamon sugar on them, they were pretty fantastic if I do say so myself. The people were pretty impressed with them :D Even the culinary students that were helping us cook thought the pretzels were great :) :D That made me feel awesome haha. Pat did a wonderful job helping me, and even though we got frustrated a little bit, it was still really good (and who isn't going to get frustrated if they're cooking for 9 hours in a single hot kitchen?).

Well, I feel like that's the end of my update, Saturday night we have youth group, Friday night we have the small group, tonight we have the worship night. Sunday we have church in the morning and will (crosses fingers) spend the day with the Pastor's family because that's the only day they have time, and we love them, they're my Mexican family. Also, Pat seems to get along pretty darn well with them, so that's awesome :D - Really, everyone loves Pat, which is expected :)

During the day we are usually online for at least a little while, so should anyone need to talk to us, that would be a good time. I am usually on skype :)

Please be praying for us, that the ministry opportunities would keep presenting themselves and that we would be able to worship God with our actions and glorify him in all that we're doing here! Also pray that Pat gets better at Spanish :)

Love,
Nora